I haven’t posted in a long time and I thought that maybe I should.  I have recently realized that I am finally a strong enough person to take a place in the the LGBTQA (I call it the alphabet for short, hahaha) community.  Thanks to my boyfriend, I can finally be ok with being myself.  I was finally able to tell my parents that Ryan and I are still together and it actually went ok.  They said that they figured he was sticking around.  I love him a lot.

I will try my hardest to let art come out through me.  It’s not the easiest but I won’t give up.  It’s not about being the best.  It’s about being the art.

I don’t know.  It’s comforting to know that he’s coming home to me at my place… not my parent’s not his parent’s, my place.  It feels like home that way instead of just a place to store my crap.

I worked at my high school’s band camp this week and let me tell you, it was a blast.  I was a little nervous at first because my band director and I haven’t been around each other in years and had a bit of a rough patch there for a while.  But thankfully (and I am truly thankful for it), that’s in the past and we are back to old times.  Man I have missed her.  I’m thankful for my band director.

He dyed his hair pink today for “Pink Day” at work.  Just for my Aunt Linda.  That means a lot…

I love cleaning.  Not because I love the work involved in cleaning but because I love how much of a difference it makes in the end.  For the small amount of time that there is no dust on the shelves, no grime on the faucets, no dishes in the sink, my life feels like it’s back in control.  Holla!

Yeah it’s a lot of work and, yeah the tips aren’t always great and yeah I can hardly walk on my pruny feet, but… HELL, THAT WAS A LOT OF FUN!!!  And the best part, the paycheck at the end of the week.  Holla!!!  Gotta be thankful for that.  :)

Over the past couple of days I have had two conversations with old friends and realized how much I am thankful for people who genuinely care.  The first was a teacher that asked me about how my life is going and why I would be at the school during the summer.  She then proceeded to ask me more meaningful questions like whether my relationship with my boyfriend was serious or not.  I said yes.  It feels so great to be able to tell someone my story who also asks questions and genuinely cares.  Tonight I visited an old friend of mine and it always makes me so happy that even when we haven’t seen each other in months, we can get right back into the swing of things without even trying.  Gosh, I am thankful for those people.

I went for a bike ride when I got done practicing today to go see if the university had mowed the disc golf course.  Well, they didn’t but that’s ok because I didn’t have my discs with me or any intention of stopping my ride there.  I rode back through the course and over two wooden bridges.  Then I rode through a completely wooded area (which I was kind of terrified would be occupied by druggies or scary people, not true).  I rode to the end of the road and turned around and went to the end of another road.  I went through campus and then across Mission (no cars in sight).  The weather was perfect, breeze blowing through my hair, sunshine on my back.  The only thing that would have made that ride any better would have included someone special to share it with and a sprinkler to run or ride through.  But in the meantime, I will just have to be thankful for my pleasant, solo bike ride.

I’ve thought that I was in love before.  I know that I am in love now.  My boyfriend treats me better than anyone else has in my entire life.  He’s more of a man than many other men will ever be.  Gosh, I am thankful for him.  And I love him like he loves me.